Sometimes you are going through somethings and not even the ones close to you notices. Your mind is all over the place, it seems like you don’t know what is happiness. Sometimes you feel lost. You are begging to be found. Tears want to come, but there’s no tear left to cry. The emptiness is so overwhelming, that it led some people to take their own lives.
I once felt the same, and I couldn’t find one person to talk to. The darkness felt like the best thing ever. Like the real me would expose itself, but the place was so dark I couldn’t see her. I isolated myself from my family. I seriously didn’t understand why I felt that way. My parents were treating me good, life was okay. So why was I feeling that way?
Up to this day, I can’t give you an answer. All I know is one day I looked in the mirror and said: “I have reached my breaking point.” I told myself I wasn’t going to make anything or anyone take my peace away, not even these courses I’m doing at my university (lool). If I fail, why cry and stress? That’s not going to make my lecturer change my grade, I will just work harder in the future.
I am going to start living life my way, at the pace I can.
Yes, there is someone at my age, who is smarter than me, talented than me, better looking than me. However, that doesn’t take away the fact that I am smart, talented and beautiful too. I am awesome and so are you.
Sometimes we will not have people to cheer us on and congratulate us. Hence, you have to be mentally powerful, be your own cheerleader. Stop looking for motivation or inspiration. Your circumstances should be your biggest motivator. Is this the life you want to live in the next 5 years?
Is that a NO? Come on my friend, just look in the mirror for 5 minutes and tell yourself that you are awesome.
If you don’t love yourself, how will you know when someone truly loves you?
Your mind, body, and soul should be your number one priority.
YOU ARE AWESOME.