Dysfunctional Family: “I want Mommy”.

Mommy, you remember when you used to love me?

Cared for me?

Prayed that I came home to safety,

What happened?

When I come home from school, you don’t even look at me….

You just drink from your bottle and start acting crazy.

You make yourself feel better by disrespecting me..

Calling me names, saying I’m worthless just like my daddy,

Then you have the nerve to blame society.

Do you know how it feels, whenever I look in the mirror I see you,

Why did I have to resemble you?

I want my mommy, but I don’t want you..

I want the mommy who made this house feel like a home,

I want my mommy who made me feel loved,

made sure I was never hungry,

she always cared for me..

I want my mommy

Getting beat up by bullies at school, then come home to get a beating from you …..

Plenty of time, I want to go

Either by rope or cut my wrist

But then I said no.

People always blame the daddies …..

The dead beat daddy.

You know how I look whenever I say my dead beat mommy

People think I”m weird

Because that saying is rare.

Being an adult at age 16 is not nice.

You ruined my childhood.

I’m here popping pills like they are candy.

Gotta look at my friends and say don’t judge me.

You ruined me, mommy,

And you don’t even regret it

It’s like I’m in foster care..

The thing is you’re the same woman but with a different man every night.

Moving from address to address.

Moving from book smart to street smart.

Because no-one is going to protect me

I have to protect myself.

The path you’re on,

One day you won’t exist, but it won’t matter, because I’m already used to it.

I want my mommy, but I don’t want you.

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17 Comments Add yours

  1. NailMUA says:

    I know EXACTLY how you feel! Always remember that you are loved❤❤❤❤

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    1. This wasn’t a reflection of my life, but thank you so much

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      1. NailMUA says:

        Thank God!…lol. It’s a great piece and I feel it shed a lot of light on the “dead beat mom” issue

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  2. Arganise Campbell says:

    I can relate so much to this at the end of the day we all crave to be loved. This beautiful.

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    1. I am so happy that you like it ☺☺

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  3. rachelmarcelle1 says:

    So sad 😦

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  4. jessierenea says:

    This broke my heart 💔 sad to know that it’s reality for some people. ☹️ Great post though.

    When you get a chance , come see me over here!!
    https://jessierenea.com/self-love-treat-yoself/

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    1. Thank you and I read it this morning. I enjoy reading your post

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      1. jessierenea says:

        You’re welcome and thank you girlie! I appreciate any and all support ♥️

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  5. Lei Esther says:

    I don’t like this poem.
    .
    .
    I LOVE IT! ❤
    Such a powerful post!

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    1. 😍😍😍😍😍 Thank you so much

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  6. Chloe Jane says:

    A very well written poem, also very heartbreaking and it’s sad to think that there’s many people out there that have been through this. You’re a great writer though! Thank you for sharing.

    Chloe xx
    http://www.chloechats.com

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    1. I really appreciate this, thank you so much

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  7. This is making me want to give my girls an extra big hug.
    Sorry you’re having to deal with it. (or dealt with it)

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    1. It didn’t happen to me, just a few friends. And thank you so much for the comment

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  8. Truly intense and moving poetry here. Well composed 🙂
    Georgia – https://britvoyage.com

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    1. Thank you. I will surly check out your site

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